Week 15, Miracles are happening

Happy New Year everyone, and what a year it MUST become!

Alert readers will have noticed I didn’t write a blog in week 14, even the Do it Now’s didn’t make it happen. Reason for this? Yeah, there were the holidays of course, but that wasn’t really it. My company is in the final stages of migration to a new back office and world wide launch right after that. Since I’m not just one of the marketers in it, but co owner and COO, there is a lot to take care of and simply not enough hours in the day.
The reading has often been replaced by playing recordings with my headset on, while working dilligently.
Because of the focus on all the work, I had to prioritize this week and simply couldn’t have other departments waiting, because of my spending time on personal growth. The price that occassionally comes with the job.

But…..I keep looking at my video poster, am ware of the nr 1 item that I need improvement on and see that daily, with others and with my self at times as well….and I feel like  being in a warm bath, while working in perfect harmony with the greatest people one could dream of working with.

Yesterday it seemed like an explosion of all good things manifesting for us….one message after the other came in that filled me with gratitude and excitement. It is like months of dilligent work, on the business AND through the MKMMA on myself, suddenly are rewarded.

I am so much more aware of my thoughts, realizing that exactly these thoughts are forming the path into my future. I am much more forgiving and, not unimportant, find it so much easier to say a heartfelt ‘I am sorry if I pissed you off’….and add a spoken ‘but I really love you’ to that.
Something, just a few months ago, would have been a major treshhold for me to take.
I’ve softened I think….doesn’t mean I can’t take tough decisions, but it is different….I am different.

By the way, I am soooo happy with the new Scroll, I never really liked the 3rd one, but this one is simply uplifting and makes me happy every single time I read it or listen to it’s recording. I cannot imagine to ever not read in this little, yet so important book again after this MKMMA class has finished…. not a surprise if I think about that, because the work on ME will never be finished.

Still trying to complete a 7 day mental diet. Have made it to 5 so far max…. one day it will happen and until then, I will keep re-starting and doing my best.

I’ve scheduled time coming weekend to catch up reading through all of your blogs, something I always experience as something tremendously empowering. Keep growing, keep giving, as we all are nature’s greatest miracle!

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Week 10, great day….until there was this idiot….and some restarts

This started to be a great day….eventhough I overslept this morning. A little late for a breakfast meeting with 2 friends and team members, but great conversations and noticing I observe better and better which individuals who seem to have a lot of bad luck in their lives, have created that and are in the process of creating more of that, by their statements, the words that flow out of their mouth.

Came back home, some great progress on work that seemed to take forever and signed up a real runner. Did a flow chart for our IT guy with whom we have a Skype meeting tonight and then decided to go out for some groceries. That wasn’t planned, but my son wasn’t feeling that well and what was on the menu for dinner tonight, well, his stomach protested. Soup it would be instead.

My bestie joined me to the supermarket, saving herself a trip on her bike in this freezing cold (I will never be a winter person lol). As always we have great conversations, we laugh, we just match very well.
Groceries were done quite quickly and we walked back to the car to put the groceries in the back and got in ourselves. On my right another car was parked who pulled out backwards while turning his steering wheel….and we both saw that came to close….aaaaaand hit us.
So we got out and stepped in front of that car, as it looked like he would drive off….when I told the guy that he had hit us and that I would appreciate filling out the insurance papers, he simply said he never hit us….and because he was pulling out of a parking space it would be impossible for him to hit us….. I still wonder where he got his drivers license, really….
The man refused to fill them out…my friend, very smart girl, took a picture of the car while I was memorizing the license plate….then she wanted to take a picture of that guy, who became really mad and even moved towards her, so she ran off to a safe distance.
He started his car again and wanted to drive off….so I warned him, driving off after a hit is a fellony and I will call police….he didn’t care he said.

My friend in the mean time was talking to the police, who were going after this guy…..and then we were standing there, still in shock about the fact he called us liars…..and getting really cold.
Since we both are in the MKMMA, our dealing with the situation came up as well…..and both of us had not such nice thoughts about this guy and his reactions….that was a restart.
After a while the first police car arrived, so we told our story….the police could see damage to my car as to where the other vehicle had hit it and gave us some good advise. Then they asked me if I was willing to still fill in the paperworks if their colleagues would be able to convince the owner of that other car to do so. If not, we would have to press charges which can take forever (which I unfortunately have experienced in the past and am still experiencing right now), so, also with the change in myself because of the MKMMA, I agreed.

politieThen the 2nd police car arrived, and the other car with its driver….still he was in complete denial, but the police got his approval to give me his personal information, required to report to the insurance company…and again, because he still denied he hit us, even the damage on his own car, which had been measured by police and matching to the height where my damage is, didn’t convince him….no, he told the police that was damage because it was an older car…duhuh….restart again.

I’ve tried ‘I’m whole etc.’…but honestly, I couldn’t get any further than ‘whole’…and some less favorable names for this guy came up in my mind.. restart again.

Now I am back home, back in the warmth and my fingers are warm again….my legs and feet still feel cold, but some hot tea will get those warm again soon enough.

I don’t feel agitated or anything, can even smile about the entire situation….there is damage, it’s not that big, nothing that cannot be fixed and I am in the warmth, while those officers will be out all night, stopping cars with lights that aren’t properly functioning and ticketing them.
We graciously thanked the officers and my friend, she is brilliant, she even thanked the guy for coming back.
But in that moment, old habits showed up….we both experienced that, so the old blueprint hasn’t been disconnected yet. I will persist, that WILL happen!

Well, few restarts, but this was day 5 and never had been at a 5th day before, so I am quite confident that full 7 days will be completed in the near future.

Let’s make the rest of this year one without police and one without restarts, wouldn’t that be awesome?